I forgot to blog on Friday . . .

but last week was fabulous! I'm so happy to be a student again. I'm at the point now where the homework hasn't caught up to me and I'm feeling very organized and productive. the key is staying at this point.

Out of all of the things that I could say about my first week of school, I think that the most entertaining one is this:

earbuds.

they're everywhere. everywhere! I knew that iPods were popular - but I just didn't realize what a fashion statement they have become. honestly. they were everywhere. I don't know if I could say that word enough. boys, girls, old, young . . . no matter who you are, if you're a student, I'm sure you must know what I'm talking about. Of course, the fact that the school that I go to has the reputation of being glorified high school might affect just how much fashion you see walking through the halls daily, but it was somethign worth seeing. I think that I'm going to try to count them on Wednesday. we'll see how that goes.

No school this morning. I spent the morning working on Math homework. that was nice. I wore my hair down. I don't think I've worn my hair down at work since the summer sometime. I don't do it. I'm too lazy . . . or rather, I like my sleep too much. it's hard enough for me to wake up early enough to get to work on time let alone spend more than 5 minutes on my hair. sad, I know. I need to change.

I just listened to cotton wool by lamb. I really enjoy that song. I think it's one of the coolest jungle beat songs out there. cool beats. I think I'll listen to it while I walk through the halls on Wednesday - and while I count all of my fellow earbud wearers out there. ;)

time to shake things up

I started class yesterday . . . after a 1 year hiatus. I was really scared of getting my feet wet again. It's not that I've done poorly in school in the past, nor is it because I don't enjoy school. I guess I was just scared of moving on with my life.

sometimes we fear the things that will bring us the most fulfillment

the moment I stepped on campus, I could feel it - moving through me like a wave of fresh air - I belong there. It was like finding a missing puzzle piece. looking in the darkest corner through some of the scariest possible places, and there it was . . . and when I picked it up, I felt straight. it was wonderful. I had only registered for a math class, but as I left the building, I found myself wishing that I could stay and learn more. I wanted to be a student. I wanted to go from class to class and feel busy and BE busy and know that I was in the right place.

so yesterday I came to work and I thought about it. I thought and I thought and I thought about it. Of course, after leaving campus the *right* feeling had left, and I was soon back to work. After a long day and a short night, my general feeling was "nah. maybe later. it's too late to really change things now"

but then this morning, the signs came again. so I got thinking again . . . and then it happened. I found out that my department is just a little overstaffed on MWF mornings. When I saw that we were overstaffed, my coworker commented "yeah, now Jenny is thinking about registering for another morning class" and I just couldn't help but say "actually, I'm thinking about it too." it was just like a sign - blaring in my face - "do it!"

so, I did it. within an hour, I was registered as a full time student. On MWF mornings, I will be on campus, enjoying the student life. Tuesday and Thursday I just have my early class . . . so I'll be working 9 - 6. the amazing thing is that all of the classes just fell into place for me . . . and they were all full except for the time slots that I needed. it was incredible. I just keep saying it must have been meant to be. It is SO meant to be!

So now I am a student. I am so excited to be a student again. I know that come April I will be wondering if I really want to be a student, but I know that I have a solid confirmation that I can rely on. I know that I'm supposed to be doing this now. all signs say go. I'm going for it. wish me luck!

I haven't listened to a single song today because of all of the excitement . . . wait, no. I have. I listened to the last few songs on homogenic today . . . and I thoroughly enjoyed the constant throbbing warmth that encompasses "all is full of love". Thank you, Ms. Gudmundsdottir, for the music.